PTSD– Mothers Love

October 5, 2011

I didn’t talk to my Mother about my Vietnam experience for many years.  Even when I did, I sanitized the telling to try and keep it from her as much as I could.  I really was curious, though, about her experience which obviously had to be difficult on her.So I asked my Mother, “Did you ever wonder whether I was going to die?”  She said that she never doubted that I would return.  The more I th0ught about this the more I realized that probably most parents don’t want this thought to enter their minds.  As if just thinking about it might cause it to occur or by not thinking about it could magically protect me.  Of course neither of these things are true but it is probably comforting anyway.

“What would you have felt if I had died?”  I then asked.  She said that she still would have been proud of me, knowing that I had died in the defense of my Country.  It was only later in life that everyone was informed that the entire Vietnam presence of the United States was predicated on a lie.  44,000 US dead, and thousands of permanently wounded.  Billions of dollars of wasted United States treasure not counting the casualties of the Vietnamese and those of other Countries supporting this War.

There would never be the “Domino Effect for communism to run rampant through Asia, as were threatened.  The propped up Vietnamese government fell and a new government rose and life went on.  Our Country was not affected adversely in the least by our withdrawl and life went on.  No matter what the NeoCons said and threatened us with if we withdrew, never happened and life went on.

Having been through this Vietnam experience I always thought that we would have learned the lessons of history.  That never again could the United States be led into an uncalled for war.  I thought perhaps this was what I ultimately I fought for. I thought the fact that we were the Vietnam generation that we were the generation that would question all of our institutions and we would have been smarter and more on the alert.  But looking back on the circumstances of this war I realized that most people really don’t care and just continue on and go along with whatever they are told and rarely question.  As long as we can sometime make this appear as a threat to our way of life, we can be fooled. “Patriotism” is a tool that can be used to cover the lust for war.

My own son, who I raised to be skeptical, was so angry with me that I was against the entering of the Iraq War.  I though for sure he would want to hear my reasoning before coming to his own conclusion but he was hypnotised by the lust for War and the rhetoric to get us there.

I now look at the feeble attempts to, “support the troops” as cover ups for supporting the policy of war.  Having been one of those troops myself I feel that no matter what banners you put up, what yellow ribbons you display, or silver wrist bands you wear, none of these things really supports the troops.  It may make you feel better by displaying it to people that don’t care. But as one of these troops it meant NOTHING.  

If you really want to support the troops then bring them home.  Stopping the killing and wounding cannot stop until you bring the military home. The PTSD victims cannot start to heal until you bring them home.  Stopping the new troops from falling into the PTSD clutches cannot end until you bring them home.  You need to stand up and demand that the government do something. 

Go to and add your name to the list.  Get yourFacebook, Linked-In,and Twitter  friends and associates to do the same.  It is we the people that can make a difference.  Just as we the people ended the Vietnam War we can end these Wars as well. 

This is not a Democrat or Republican or Independant issue.  It is a personal issue, a family issue.  I would have hated to have died and have my mother be proud.  I would have wanted her to stand up and do her part to end the killing and waste. 

If you really want to support the troops then you need to really get involved.